Not what would you spend it on.
What would you do?
Would you jump up and down?
Would you wave your hands wildly?
Would you yelp out some strange noise or scream?
As I have watched my Adrian all of these years, I have seen him get excited about things. Sometimes I know what he’s excited about and sometimes I don’t. I can tell that he has all this pent up energy inside of him bursting out through jumping up and down, squealing loudly, and flapping his hands.
I’ve also seen him trying to control these motions. Sometimes when he first meets new people I see him trying to control himself. When we are in public I’ve seen him try to control himself. At home when I am needing quiet and have been hushing him all day I see him try to control it.
For the most part, I would say he can’t control it or it’s extremely difficult for him to control it.
One example I could think of would be, if you won a million dollars. You would be excited right? What if it wasn’t acceptable for you to react. To remain calm. Would it be hard? Undoubtedly.
I don’t know if anyone else ever felt this way on the last day of school for your summer break. You are walking down the hall towards the door to the freedom of summer. I always had this energy like I wanted to run right out those doors. It was hard to calmly walk down the corridor to my freedom.
I can only imagine the kind of energy that Adrian must be feeling. The kind of energy that needs to come out of his body in squeals, flaps, moans, yelling, and jumping. I can only imagine it. It must be uncomfortable to feel that way all the time. So when I’m frustrated with Adrian I try to remember how hard it must be for him to control some of the things he needs to do.